its been a long time since i felt so low. the last time i felt that low was probably when she was around. hai. many disappointing and exceedingly infuriating events have been taking place recently. which probably caused me to not only explode.. but sink into my old-new low. feel like getting away.. go on a holiday.. clear my mind. but i dont even think thats gonna happen now. promises made by friends broken.. pple (me included) being taken for granted... close frens (or at least we used to be) forgetting ya bdae and nv making time to meet up.. guys just being themselves and pissing the hell outta u... even my home life is getting on my nerves... we used to be so much closer n happier. dunno whats happening now. when i tink to myself and ask myself who are the people in my life that truly matter and are consistent in their friendship... i only had a pathetic few to name. its amazing how friends you've known so long or thought were close can just eat away at ur heart (sometimes even unknowingly) and cripple u for so long that u almost always never realise you have fallen until you've hit the ground. where is my kacheng when i need her. or my sis. only these two pple will always stand by and be there for me.. listen to all the crap i say. or just sit beside me if words cant be said. only they are the ones who really bother to keep in touch and understand me. to update each other faithfully and honestly. the funniest thing now is that altho they are my two best friends and relatives inta world.. they're all the way in melb! it really shows how pathetic some of my frens (only some) and parts of life are.